She also told me I look like I lost weight…
I thought I was getting better and eating more. Then I realized I wasn’t. My nanny left my dad a more yesterday and in it she wrote “I tried to encourage Abby to eat but she wasn’t hungry…”
I recently moved to a new school, and I was with my new boyfriend after school. He had a cut on his forearm and I asked him what happened and he said it was from football. But then he showed me his other arm that was all scarred up, because last year his father kicked him out for accusing him of stealing stuff. I hate the fact that knowing someone I care about hurts themselves. I wanted to roll up my sleeves and show him the fresh cuts I have, or tell him the real reason behind why I never eat during lunch. I need to find someone at school that I can trust.
Last year whenever I ate a big lunch before school I would purge and then smoke. But now I have nothing to smoke so it sucks.